i have many things on my mind and i want so badly to stop thinking about them. it’s been a hard couple of weeks and my 2012 isn’t going too well. i can’t tell if it’s because too much has changed or because nothing has changed at all THIS DOESN’T MAKE SENSE
a few minutes ago i emptied my rubbish bin, it was so full that i would see rubbish and wouldn’t do anything because i knew my rubbish bin was full. i feel like there is some sort of symbolism here. i dug out my unfinished novel and my sketchbook because i want to keep myself occupied rather than sitting around thinking about things that succccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
i will have stupidly short shifts at t2 on friday and sunday with a massive wedding to cater for on saturday, but after that i will have my whole week free and this scares me a bit and makes me :(. i have also checked this tumblr’s followers and i am cool with all of you, i have changed my url so no one else can find it
i will make a movie / tv show list
and hopefully i will get out of this rut!!!